I started listening to a podcast. It’s called Mythology, and each episode goes in-depth about a Greek god or goddess. I’m new to the podcast scene, and it’s a nice change from listening to music all the time.
That was a good part of my day; now let’s get into the not so good part.
I struggle to say bad because I am past the point of crying over things like this since it has happened so much while I was an adolescent. But I wanted to write about this so I can get my thoughts out.
I was helping a customer at work, and they were lovely. Then I ringed them up at the register, and we had a pleasant conversation going. As I was bagging their items, I heard one of them whisper, “she’s gay,” and then something about me being pretty.
First off, thanks for calling me pretty! I don’t get that much. It makes the situation less sucky.
I wear a rainbow and lesbian flag bracelet every day because I am proud of who I am, and I am also timid and introverted, so it acts as a conversation starter.
Anyways from then on, they were silent and wouldn’t even look me in the eye. I assumed it was because they saw my bracelets on my wrist. I said, “have a good day,” and they ignore me.
I would be lying if I said that it didn’t hurt.
But I also thought it was kind of childish. I have interacted with people with different political views, and I treated them no different from someone I share the political views with. I have interacted with people wearing things with sayings I don’t necessarily agree with, but I still talk to them and give them the time of day.
I believe that we, as people need to love one another despite our differences. We are all human.
It just saddens me to know that some people feel like I don’t deserve to be treated with respect because of a rainbow bracelet on my wrist—just some food for thought.
I touched up my resume and cover letter, and I’m kind of proud of myself. But I had some thoughts while looking at jobs. I realized that there are some jobs that I am scared to apply to. Not because I’m afraid of the workload or expectations.
It’s because I am afraid of potential discrimination.
I saw some positions open at religious institutions, and I didn’t apply to them. As a religious queer person, I do not feel safe applying to these jobs.
I would love to work for a church. I took several religion courses in college, and I am knowledgeable in several religions, but I feel like my queerness will not vibe with some institutions.
This leads me to reflect on my experiences as a queer person who is also religious.
I was raised with religion, and I consider myself to be a religious person. But I have experienced many instances of discrimination and homophobia, and this is why I don’t have a “home church.”
When I went to college, I met a church leader who is an LGBT ally. This was when I believed you could be queer and religious.
Why did I think otherwise?
Some queer people I have spoken to have said you are either religious or you are gay. You can’t be both.
As I got older, I started to develop my thoughts and views about the world. I have more clarity and realize this world is not black and white. And that has helped me improve my relationship with religion and with myself.
I was invited to attend Flame Con 2019 as media, and this was my favorite convention of the year.
I heard about Flame Con back in 2018 while I was attending Liberty City Anime Con. The timing was not right,and I did not attend. During Flame Con 2019 I had fun attending panels, interviewing artists in the artist alley, and being surrounded by queer people in a queer-positive space.
“Flame Con is the world’s largest queer comic con. Featuring a two-day comics, arts and entertainment expo, showcasing creators and special guests from all corners of the LGBTQ fandom. It features thoughtful discussions, exclusive performances, screenings, cosplay and more!” – Flamecon.com
Flame Con is so important to me because it was one of the first times I actually felt free. I was able to be myself without the fear of judgment. I was able to display my gay pride in a safe space. It was truly freeing. The highlight of my day was buying a lesbian disaster pin because let’s be honest, I am a lesbian disaster.
“From costume choices to photographers to the way we interact with social media and attract audiences, what does it mean for us as queer cosplayers in a hobby/profession that is so often straight men consuming images of sexualized women? Listen to a panel of seasoned LGBTQ+ cosplayers discuss how the straight male gaze influences their relationship to cosplay.” – Flamecon2019.sched.com
I learned a lot of new information about the cosplay community. As a film major, I have studied the male gaze in cinema, so I was very intrigued to see how the male gaze can affect cosplayers.
The speakers and moderator talked about ways to make the cosplay community more inclusive and safer as well as sharing their personal stories.
The final panel I attended was The Gay Animation Renaissance.
“Recent years have seen a wave of new LGBT+ content in western animation. Show-runners face many hidden roadblocks behind the scenes, but find creative (and often imperfect ) solutions to break new ground. The incremental contributions by Avatar, Steven Universe, Adventure Time, Voltron, She-ra, and others will be discussed.” – Flamecon2019.sched.com
I sat in one of the seats reserved for media, and it went to my head. I felt so important and special you couldn’t tell me anything. But seriously this panel was my favorite because it opened my eyes to queerbaiting, lack of representation, and misrepresentation of queer people in animation. I wish I took more video of this panel because it was so good, but I included a small clip in my vlog.
Let me tell you this was an EXPERIENCE. I am a very anxious and introverted person, so getting myself to attend this convention alone was A TIME. Once I was there, I felt at home, but interviewing people was anxiety-inducing. I interviewed people at a previous job, but I had a partner, I never did it alone.
Every person I talked to was so lovely, and I slowly started to come out of my shell and become more comfortable and confident in approaching people and talking to them.
Overall, Flame Con 2019 was a great con. I highly recommend attending this convention to all of my fellow queer people, but I think that there is something for everyone at this convention.